#unless I'm petty again or there's another juicy update

[spitfirerose]

Jk I'm not done being a petty bitch

My dad's a piece of shit. He's never loved or cared about us in a way that matters. He's never said so. He did the bare fucking minimum when we were kids and expected us to be grateful for him for "doing something nice" when it was a clear sign he didn't know us at all (or even bothered to get our input in decisions that affected us, like doing something with our bedrooms). All he did was yell, threaten, swear, and throw/slam shit whenever he was pissed (aka all the time), while also expecting us to be able to read his mind about whatever set him off.

The only times he was a decent fucking parent are sprinkles on a shit sundae.

He doesn't listen to us, or to my mother (but tbf no one does). Idk man, maybe I'm just built different or have standards, but if my partner never listened to me about shit that needs done, big or small, I wouldn't brush it off as "that's just how he is". No. It's bullshit is what it is, and you don't settle for bullshit (or how good someone is in bed like that's somehow the only thing that *really* matters in a relationship). If I've been asking for my spouse to fix something for over twenty years and it still hasn't been done, I'd go fucking crazy.

(And as their kid, I kinda already have. We're all just a molotov cocktail of unchecked mental illnesses.)

He's mellowed out a ton since we were children, but he's still a neglectful asshat who still threatens and yells over the tiniest bit of justified criticism. It pisses me off when I hear from everyone over what a great guy he is and they love him. He isn't. You don't know him like I do. You don't know how much I resent him and especially when I watch him act all happy and affectionate towards kids that aren't his own. He never showed us any of that, and he never will.

Then there's my mother.

She's emotionally immature to the max. She bitches and whines about everything (kinda valid considering her husband), and always pulls the "I'm just the worst mom in the world" bullshit to try and shut any criticism down. When I was a kid, I picked up "I can do what I want, it's a free country" at elementary school. I grew out of it, since I was a child, but she continuously uses the phrase to this day. She also cannot keep her mouth shut to save her life. There's nothing I can tell her in confidence since I learned as a kid that she will tell everyone. Maybe it's to make her shitty excuse for a life seem better than it is to other family members and friends who are successful, because there sure isn't a lot going for any of us. No one likes or listens to her, so it checks out, anyway. And yes, she did admit to me that dad is good in bed so that's why she's with him.

And now she's having nuclear level breakdowns over how neglectful he is to her (as well as potentially cheating on her). Like what did you expect? You told him yourself he doesn't love you like you see other married couples love each other. If he did at one time, he sure doesn't now, and hasn't for a very long time. You don't even communicate with each other. You just let shit slide. She wants to try counseling, but doesn't know if he wants to. She thinks it's too little, too late anyway.

Yeah, no shit.

Uh oh, gang! (Personal life shit)

Looks like mom just realized how shitty her marriage is with my father and what a terrible partner he is!